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November 10th, 2007You Are a Mac |
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Merry November & Happy End of the Year
November 3rd, 2007Wow! 2007 began with a shot. Immediately we were caught up in an amazing blur of activity and it wasn’t until Spring, when the dust began to settle. Come summer, it was all routine — hard, but routine. Now that the Christmas music is playing in the stores I can’t believe that the year went so fast. Despite all the change, sweat, stress and tears, I’m sad to see the year end.
But it isn’t over yet. The next 57 days will be action packed. I can’t imagine how I will get it all done. And I probably don’t even realize all that I need to do. Thankfully. There is strength and peace in ignorance.
Type A Free Spirit.
Working hard to let the wind
blow me where it will.
Did I Wake You?: Haikus for Modern Living
Last month, a local pastor came and spoke to our Graduate Christian Fellowship about life being a roller coaster and Jesus, the ever present, always secure, safety bar. On this ride of life, we know there will be ups and downs, and yet we always act surprised. And we know that somehow, we will come out of it. The ride will come to an end and we will be fine. So, we have two choices: ride white-knuckled, tense and in fear, or throw our hands back and enjoy the ride.
I’ve done white-knuckled, tense and afraid. I pretty much had it down to a science. Thankfully I realized it really wasn’t working for me, and threw my hands up and trusted God. The ride still gets rough, but faith makes it easier to endure, as does Jesus, my ever present, safety bar 
What a wild ride 2007 has been. Just thinking about it makes me want to hurry into 2008, hands held high and eyes wide open. Yep. Might as well enjoy the ride. “Throw your hands in the air, God’s gonna answer your prayer…”
The Big Shrug
October 19th, 2007The glide of my hands
In my knitting I am free
It is my ocean
–Knit One, Haiku Too
I missed my morning walks on the beach this week, as work had me otherwise occupied. My week was further truncated, as I prepared for another trip out of town. So at times like these, it is my knitting that substitutes for my meditative time with God and myself.
In the last stages of my marriage, when the abuse was at its height and I was frantically making plans for ending the madness, it was my knitting that shielded me and helped me escape. Literally. For weeks I hid my divorce and restraining order paperwork in my knitting bag, underneath my Big Shrug (in progress) and several ostrich eggs of wool.
The Big Shrug began like most knitting projects — I heard about it from some knitters on the KnitList and after some late night online yarn shop crawling, I decided on 2 lovely cones of Harrisville Shetland in Periwinkle. It was my first time using wool on cones and I loved it. I slowly and rhythmically wound off huge hanks using the back of my rocking chair. I remember washing them in eucalyptus wool wash and rigging a hanger on the patio for the hanks to dry. Then it was hand winding for days with my nostepinde, resulting in these huge, wonderfully scented ostrich eggs.
The lace pattern was a challenge for me, and like the rest of my life, I struggled for years, wrestling with it in spurts — it just didn’t seem like I would ever get the hang of it or that it would ever be finished. A dear friend relentlessly encouraged me, and later when I finally had the courage to let others know what I had been living with, this dear friend encouraged me all the more to finish it.
And finish, I did. Without effort, I memorized the lace pattern and it just knit itself over a few weeks this summer. I washed and blocked it and after two days of drying on my floor, my 5yr old work in progress was a finished object!
It is so special to me now and I wear it with pride. I openly praise myself for completing such a formidable task, for being patient and diligent and for the beautiful outcome. Sometimes I don’t know if I’m talking about the shrug or my life.
No Title
September 16th, 2007So, I’ve collected a million things this week that I wanted to blog about and now that I finally have a quite moment, I don’t want to write about any of them.
It’s Sunday, I’m in a quite space right now and I want to stay here
Instead, I’m going to go knit and watch TV or listen to Austen’s Persuasion.
Good night.
